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I'm a Survivor!!!!!

I'm a survivor
I'm not gon' give up
I'm not gon' stop
I'm gon' work harder
I'm a survivor
I'm gonna make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin'- Destiny's Child

(Dress: Tickled Pink stretch denim and camo maxi dress)

I am the epitome of "I don't look like what I've been through", Weighing in a 3 lbs 5 ounces and 3 months premature I was born a survivor. My hope for this blog is to be a beacon of light and hope for someone that doesn't think they can make it... YOU CAN!! I am far from where I want to be, but right where I need to be!

I've been working really hard over the last few weeks to get this blog off the ground...and what better season than Fall, where the weather and fashion can change like the color of leaves...

Photo cred: Mr. B

I know you must be thinking "Why now? Why at this time?" Well, I will tell you why, there is a reason why I did indeed pick this particular time and "SEASON" to share my world with all of you... On this very day 27 years ago, my life was altered...now while I didn't know it then I do know it now that there is definitely a higher purpose for my life, and I mean business about it!!



Photo cred: Mr. B.

I wrote this poem a year ago out of sheer anger and last week was the first time I've read it since and it shook me up a little bit..in a good way...take a look I call it 2 Days:


2 Days before Thanksgiving my whole life changed...
I had no idea that my life would never be the same....
You took something away from me that I could never ever get back....
As I grew into a woman I suffered with qualities I would go on to lack...
Did it take you 2 Days to decide to do what you did...
Did it take you 2 Days to decide if that knife against my neck would let me live...
I live with the thought that whenever people see me...what is it that they really see?
Do they see me as a mat to walk on...
Or a woman with the strength to move on...
Or maybe like you they think I am someone to abuse, talk down to,
mistreat, and use...
You took something from me that was not yours to take...
It would go on to set the stage of disrespect I would later take...
After 26 years I have way more at stake...
My hopes, my dreams
My goals, my self esteem...
I've always been good at hiding behind my smile...but of course that would only last for a little while
But on today...2 Days...I am taking a stand and know that I have grown...
The seeds you planted by raping me I NO LONGER OWN...
I am taking back the power that you violently took away from me....
And will now look at the 2 Days before Thanksgiving as the beginning of my NEW DESTINY....
Photo cred: Mr. B
While this is a new venture for me, I hope you guys will take the journey with me and see where it takes us...yes US because we are in this together...I can't do this without you...
(Poncho camo and faux leather Tickled Pink and Tieraney J YT tutorial)
(Pants Faux leather: Mimi G for Simplicity 1167)

I am a lover of God, my family, especially my children Stephon and Natasia, my very special guy (you'll get to meet those important to me along the way), my playful cat Max, all kinds of music and just about anything PINK!!

I am here to give you a glimpse into my life...and how sewing keeps it all together!!!

So sit back, relax and come back and visit Tickled Pink where it's:
Sassy, Classy, Sexy, Period

Lots of Love,

After all of the darkness and sadness
Soon comes happiness
If I surround myself with positive things
I’ll gain prosperity
I’m a SURVIVOR…and if you’re reading this so are you!



Here's a little Destiny's Child motivation!!




Comments

  1. UnknownNovember 23, 2015 at 11:16 PM

    Soooo proud of you Sis... Your testimony will definitely touch many... Can't wait to be tickled.. Love ya Sis... Cree

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    1. UnknownNovember 23, 2015 at 11:57 PM

      Thanks so much Cree...I appreciate your support!

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  2. sewtellmeNovember 23, 2015 at 11:38 PM

    Yay! Congratulations.

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  3. UnknownNovember 23, 2015 at 11:59 PM

    Thanks Kelly! Your help has been invaluable to me! No turning back now!

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  4. TulishaNovember 24, 2015 at 1:00 AM

    Love it! And congrats friend! ����

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  5. TulishaNovember 24, 2015 at 1:01 AM

    Love it! And congrats friend! ����

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  6. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 1:05 AM

    You make me proud to be a woman. When I hear your story you make me strong. I love to see the pieces you sew; even though I can't sew right now you have been one of my mentors along with our Mimi ❤️ I can't wait to be Tickled Pink.

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  7. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 3:23 AM

    I knew you could do it women !! Congrats !!

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    1. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 11:22 AM

      Thanks so much

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    2. DARA JNovember 24, 2015 at 1:06 PM

      Way to go Lawana. This is EPIC..I can't wait to see what's in store!!

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  8. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 4:09 AM

    Absolutely Awesome! You go QUEEN! You got me in tears right now! You are such an Inspiration to me and others. I am glad I get to be a witness to the Beginning of something Truly Amazing! I'm so Proud of You. Yes, You are a SURVIVOR! Love You! Bathsheba c/o 91"

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  9. DawnSSLNovember 24, 2015 at 4:11 AM

    Awesome testimony! Congrats on this new chapter and Gid continued blessings!!

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  10. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 4:24 AM

    Awwwww LOOK AT GOD.... I have Known you literally since I was a little girl. You have always been a beautiful soul. I remember all of us calling you grandma always very quiet but always with a presence. You are reaping what you have sowed and you deserve it. I Love You Girl and I can't wait for the sewing tutorials and of course I will always be a TICKLEDPINK customer!!!!

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    1. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 11:21 AM

      Thanks for supporting me...it means more than you know!!

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  11. DawnSSLNovember 24, 2015 at 4:25 AM

    God's*

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  12. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 5:24 AM

    Congratulations lady! May this blog be encouraging and a beacon for all women

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  13. FayeNovember 24, 2015 at 5:51 AM

    Lawana, u have a story and you summed that piece up very well. I am so proud of you for stepping out on faith. I think I just added another superwoman to my list, and there is only 1 other (my mom). Congrats and keep on surviving bc this short life we have, that's all we can do. Love u much!

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  14. Kim Barnes-jonesNovember 24, 2015 at 6:22 AM

    Yessssssssss I'm do happy for you. Congrats

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  15. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 7:25 AM

    Congratulations on your new baby! The next Mimi G!

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    1. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 11:08 AM

      There's only one Mimi G...but she's very good company...the first Lawana P...thanks so much

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  16. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 7:33 AM

    Love the poem your story will heal others to overcome. I love you my fellow lady jaguar, infectious known as Grandma, now Ms.Tickle Me Pink. Congrats ♡♡

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    1. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 11:18 AM

      Thanks Crissy...my fellow jaguars had no idea how you guys got me through that time...without even knowing what happened to me...but that's a testament to how a group of young people can really have an influence on an individual

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  17. NevaNovember 24, 2015 at 8:22 AM

    Congratulations on your blog! Your story is very inspirational. It really touched my heart, it bought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing your story and being a beacon for someone who may not be strong enough to share their story. God's got a blessing with your name on it ! Keep doing what you do, looking forward to more.

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  18. ShannonNovember 24, 2015 at 11:24 AM

    Powerful beyond words, amazing grace comes to mind! Always knew you were special and talented from the first time I met you at WW. Continue to be a Beacon of Light for the World to see. Do it Girll!! Love It!!!

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  19. AnonymousNovember 24, 2015 at 12:45 PM

    Wow honey!!! I'm so blown away by the awesomeness of your blog!! You are duch a inspiration to myself and many other people. Yes we are on this journey together and I'm so proud that NOW behind that smile is truly happines, confidence and joy!! Love u Wana : ) From Keesha Kamal

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  20. AnonymousNovember 24, 2015 at 1:11 PM

    Tell the truth & shame the devil! I thank God for giving you the courage to share your story. May you be abundantly blessed on the journey. Keep up the great work! I'm so proud of you my friend!

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  21. Debra SmithNovember 24, 2015 at 1:38 PM

    Girl Bye! I am so proud of you. This awesome. I know how hard you''ve work for this and I look forward to you accomplishing great things.

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  22. tdecuirNovember 24, 2015 at 2:40 PM

    Congrats! I know you will be AWESOME!

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  23. WhimsicalMeNovember 24, 2015 at 2:47 PM

    I love your new blog! Congratulations on doing it!

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  24. Anita MorrisNovember 24, 2015 at 3:21 PM

    Yaaaaaaayyyyyy!!! Congratulations Lawanna!!! I'm sooo proud and happy for you. God's blessings to you as you step into this new journey. I'm so looking forward to all your creative talent to flow through this Blog. Get it girl!

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  25. B-Styles UnlimitedNovember 24, 2015 at 3:37 PM

    Heyyyy gurl, congrats. Upward and onward :-) :-)

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  26. B-Styles UnlimitedNovember 24, 2015 at 3:37 PM

    Heyyyy gurl, congrats. Upward and onward :-) :-)

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  27. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 7:44 PM

    Awesome I am truly inspired already!!! So excited to take this journey with you and get that fashion on stage!

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    1. UnknownDecember 2, 2015 at 3:40 PM

      Thank you for being a friend (in my golden girls voice)...Can't wait!! Ready to Leap HIgh!

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  28. UnknownNovember 24, 2015 at 9:46 PM

    I SIMPLY LOVE THIS Lawana! I'm so very proud of you sew sistah!! CONGRATULATIONS to you again! I'm working on getting my 2 websites up and running for my crafting business and for my urban fashion line! Thank you for your inspiration!! YOU GO GIRL!!!!

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    1. UnknownDecember 2, 2015 at 3:40 PM

      Can't wait to see what you have to share Dina!! The world is waiting!

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  29. Miss.B. HavenNovember 25, 2015 at 2:41 AM

    That poem....I'm in tears. We have no idea what people have gone through to get where they are today . Keep pushing on because YOU give me hope and strength and I thank you Mentor!!!xoxoxo

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    1. UnknownDecember 2, 2015 at 3:44 PM

      We most certainly do not and I am glad I can do that for you!

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  30. Shongwe Couture November 25, 2015 at 5:58 AM

    Watching you grow congrats sis

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  31. UnknownNovember 26, 2015 at 2:53 AM

    Congrats, I knew you could do it. This is just the beginning to many more great avenues to come. Stay motivated and keep walking out your purpose.

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    1. UnknownDecember 2, 2015 at 3:47 PM

      Girl I knew I could do it too!! I had to just go for it!

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  32. Trudi PNovember 27, 2015 at 7:53 PM

    Congratulations sweetie. you are an inspiration. you go Darling #1

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  33. KendraNovember 30, 2015 at 5:56 AM

    GOD BLESS U LAWANA! SO PROUD OF YOU TAKING YOUR POWER BACK! NO, YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH BUT THANK GOD FOR YOUR LIFE EXPERIENCES BECAUSE THEY HAVE STRENGTHENED AND DEVELOPED YOU INTO A COURAGEOUS BUTTERFLY! NOW SOAR!!!!

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    1. UnknownDecember 2, 2015 at 3:49 PM

      I'm trying Kendra....I needed to take it back or it was gonna destroy me...but I know there is a higher purpose for my life.

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  34. UnknownNovember 30, 2015 at 3:13 PM

    Congrats!!!

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  35. AnonymousDecember 1, 2015 at 6:54 PM

    Congratulations cousin. I am so proud of you . I LOVE you from the bottom of my heart. GOD has truely brought you through and I see he ia not done with you yet....Love Monica

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    1. UnknownDecember 2, 2015 at 3:56 PM

      Thank you Monica and I love you more and I most certainly hope He is not!

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